There are so many things in life we do not expect nor ever see coming, the same is to be said about adoption. Adoption is not the rainbow at the end of a storm. Some people think of adoption or the life as an adoptee as “Annie” the movie, with endless happiness, riches, and don’t forget the wonderful singing ability. While others see adoption or the life as an adoptee as bad, or even horrible, with rejection, something is wrong with her, that she is unloved, etc. For most adoptees neither of these images is the truth. In most cases we are being raised by a parent, or parents that love us that happen to be parenting us through adoption.

Even with things ended the way they have with my mom (adoptive) I still feel truly blessed to be adopted. I could not even begin to imagine my life without being adopted. I will always have the love of my dad (adoptive) and I know without a shadow of a doubt that he will always be there for me. I will also have my sister (birth adopted with me) to share my life with and I know that she loves me.

While I know that I will always long for the love of my mom and there will always be that dark place in me, I know that I have been blessed in my life (including my adoption). Even though I am struggling with the rejection of my mom I realize that I have more love and support than some people do.

My cherry on top of life is being called “Momma” by four beautiful and amazing children (three happen to be adopted) that I adore. This is my greatest gift and honor in my life. So, now I try to focus on the things that I can control and the future that I will give my children one day.